A LOOP

 I love the sight of young women being able to afford themselves, the girls are eating and I genuinely want that for me, how must I pray? Earlier on I walked into woolies, I crossed paths with this gorgeous girlie holding a bouquet of flowers and six pack of those woolies drinks we dash bev with, my heart melted right there on spot because the girls are eating and I love that for them, such a sweet sight, once again, it should've been me. Tota hela I love the sight of women having fun and being able to afford themselves, le bo senior girls tota.

Baby and I have been dating for some time now, the longest I've been in a relationship (how must you pray), don't worry, I'll be holding a masterclass on that very certain matter next year the thirteenth of feb. He also borrowed me his laptop, to do my schoolwork, le nna ga ke itse gore MmaPat o ntse a dira eng ko Majwaneng, not that I'm complaining, I mean what she did, go taare a topele. One last thing, married people, how must I pray? This surname is starting to get heavy I need to change it.

Honestly, I no longer know what this blog is for, is it a platform I regularly give updates about my life on here? or a place where I just scribble down my thoughts? Whatever it is, today is not a good day: far fetched, today had potential for being a good day but ended being terrible, I hate being sad, I hate not being happy.

Anyway, I haven't been reading, I haven't been giving my schoolwork all the attention it needs...honestly, I do not feel like writing, i'm forcing things, I had to get that out of the way just so that you wouldn't be surprised when the read starts to be blerggg. I hate a lot of things about my life right now, everything its entirety, as much as I hate my life right does not mean i'm not grateful for certain things...in all honesty, in comparison it is more like being grateful for a job because it puts food on your table, affords you the life of your dreams but in the same breath it is a toxic work environment. I do acknowledge that from the outside I appear to be living an envious privileged life, but in total honesty, I hate it (the fact that this is the second time mentioning it goes on to solidify the depth of the matter). I hate living on the edge and having to live life accommodating for peoples feelings, their moods, be...

I think all my life I've been able to acknowledge failure or any misfortunes of life as lack of hardwork, if I got a bad grade, I knew it is because I did not study hard, nothing like it was because the test was hard or anything (I know if I put my mind to something, put in the hours, I'd definitely come out at the top). With that mindset, I think I have invited people mistreating because to me it is always "I understand why they're being so vile towards me, I've overstayed my welcome" the point of the matter is, I have this tendency of tolerating injustice and toxic behaviors bec... 

This blog was drafted and never completed on the 1st of March 2023